Raw soups and smoothies- 40 Day Semi Raw Food Cleanse

Any DELICIOUS green drink recipes or Vitamix soup recipes are welcome!!  

I am a newbie so taste is everything right now...

Starting: May 11th
Ending: June 19th


Starting weight- 175 lbs
Goal Weight- 130-150

Reason?
Part of my depression outside of the genetic reasons is my infertility, weight gain and being OCD about my skin.  This "cleanse" will be a challenge to me so completing it will be empowering.  I am a foodie, so "culinarily" speaking I want to see if I can survive.  I will do light exercise as anything too intense isn't recommended with my medication.
-Get pregnant
-Lose weight
-Clear skin
-Increase liquids
-Increase fiber
-Increase energy
-I CAN DO HARD THINGS for me!  Empowerment.


Menu, Week 1-  I know it isn't perfect, but I am trying something new and this is what I think I can do for now.  I will be using my new Vitamix :)  I'm so excited!

DAY 1		DAY 5
Breakfast	Kidney Cleanser	Breakfast	Kidney Cleanser
Snack	Nuts	Snack	Nuts
Lunch	Popeye Gone Raw Cream of Spinach Soup	Lunch	Jon's Corn Chowder
Snack	Nuts	Snack	Nuts
Dinner	Easy Tomato and Chickpea Soup	Dinner	Cream of Zucchini Soup
Dessert	Fruit Gazpacho	Dessert	Blueberry pecan smoothie
DAY 2		DAY 6
Breakfast	Skin Cleanse	Breakfast	Skin Cleanse
Snack	Nuts	Snack	Nuts
Lunch	Don's Carrot Soup	Lunch	Cucumber Avacado Dill Soup
Snack	Nuts/quinoa pilaf	Snack	Nuts/quinoa pilaf
Dinner	Easy Tomato and Chickpea Soup	Dinner	Raw Tortilla Soup
Dessert	Fruit Gazpacho	Dessert	strawberry sorbet
DAY 3		DAY 7
Breakfast	Kidney Cleanser
Snack	Nuts	Breakfast	Kidney Cleanser
Lunch	Souper Beet Soup with macadamia crème	Snack	Nuts
Snack	Nuts	Lunch	Creamy Carrot Soup
Dinner	Creamy Carrot Soup	Snack	Nuts
Dessert	Watermelon Soup	Dinner	Leftovers
		Dessert	coconut icecream
DAY 4
Breakfast	Skin Cleanse
Snack	Nuts
Lunch	Leftovers
Snack	Nuts/quinoa pilaf
Dinner	Leftovers
Dessert	Watermelon Soup

My biggest question...

As I unravel the "mess" of my life and figure out what is a result of my condition, and what is truly me, I am finding that it is VERY difficult to find things that aren't a direct result of "learning how to exist" with my condition.  I feel as though the more I unravel the mess, the more condition I find, and the less of me there is. So, my condition basically shaped me into who I am today...and trying to get rid of it-to find my "voice" so to say; It is very frustrating. 

The way I react to/in situations: my social etiquette, my drive/motivation, what I feel I'm worth.  I think I would react so differently in life and how I take it on if I didn't have Bipolar 2.  Of course I would!!  Who wouldn't?  Who wants to feel timid, so undeserving or lacking, feel useless,  fearful, unlikeable, untalented, ugly and broken.  People always tell me how beautiful I am, how talented I am with baking and cooking, what pretty hair I have, how kind and loving I am.  Why can't I see those things?  Why can't I trust them when they tell me those things?  Without Bipolar I would have been able to develop myself into who I want to be.  Now, I am facing breaking out of all of that and it scares me!  Shouldn't I be more excited?  Life is waiting!!!  It's all I've known for 26 years whether I like it or not...bipolar 2 disorder is all I've known!  Up until this year I have been unaware as to what my diagnosis was.  Now that I know (and am being treated with medicine that has helped a whole lot...still working on the dosage) shouldn't I be able accomplish whatever I want?

I have a hard time trusting what is underneath the condition.  My conditioned doubts about myself still creep up.

Am I really worth all this fuss?  Yes, I guess-I just need to believe it.  This is the main paradigm that I need to get over.  I know it will be a hard journey.  Somewhere in my intricately woven mess of my condition and me...I am in there.  I am worth fighting for. 

What makes me, me?  I have no clue.  Somewhere in me I am waiting to burst out of my shell and live life.